50…the look

Something I often contemplate is how I am supposed to look at my age. I have always been “into” clothes and how I look. Let’s face it, our
appearance is the first thing someone sees when they meet us. It’s a first
impression, and I don’t want to make a bad one! I was married at 24, and a few months after my wedding I cut my hair into a bob (and my hair at the time was quite long and curly). I only cut my hair because I thought it was more appropriate to look older because I was now a married woman. My hair hasn’t been that short since! I somehow felt that what I liked wasn’t important, but how others perceived me was. That was my first mistake. 

age is just a number

I had my first son at 30, and because I had problems with my pregnancy and childbirth, 30 came and went without me being focused too much on my age. The only thing I did focus on was losing my pregnancy weight, which I did after both of my sons were born. A few years before I turned 40, I was back to being in the best shape of my adult life. I got a tattoo and a belly button ring. I was proud of my body and the way that I looked. It was important for me to look good and feel good. I was still wearing mini-skirts in the summer and bikini’s and was always flattered when people would comment that I didn’t look my age. That’s where the issue lies. 

now what?

Now that I am 50 (gulp…still so strange to write that) I have that voice
in my head that says “you can’t wear that anymore, you’re too old” or “you
shouldn’t shop in that store anymore, it’s where 20 year old’s shop”. People
still comment that I don’t look my age, but the more confident me believes that age has no number. I don’t dress inappropriate, but if I still want to wear a bikini, a short skirt or keep my hair long, I can and I will! I have worked hard to keep myself healthy and in shape. My recent surgery makes me well aware that I do not have a 24 year old body anymore, but I wouldn’t want it. My more mature, slim but filled out figure is directly a result of me, and if I look good and feel good, I will be proud and show myself off to the world. 

I’m sure not everyone has the same opinion as me, and I would love to hear yours. Turning 50 has been a journey but it doesn’t end here!